Gentlemen

Yesterday turned out to be a simply fantastic day.  Once I got off work things just went wonderfully.  I walked home from work and decided to be spontaneous and stop at this cute local place called the Blue Cockatoo where I found a birthday present for C!  It was so nice to get home to D to gab about our day before we headed over to the Piper Down for a drink and to say goodbye to C.  We got to see and catch up with some of our old friends from N, which was really nice.  We've really missed JF!  Hopefully we're going to see his band play up in Park City in the next few weekends.  Finally back at home, I got to chat with M for a long while before bed which was a great end to a perfect day.  He's going to be teaching me some self defense moves so I can get over my "stranger danger" now that I'm an adult... haha

Today has been a good day too.  I'm going home tonight - right after work - and couldn't be more excited to see E's bunny and my parent's kitchen and basement and everything.  Oh, and tonight is W's graduation party so it'll be nice to hang out with my family's friends and celebrate!  The weather has been crazy today.  Luckily I took advantage of it this morning when it was a nice, sunny 70 degrees!  It's about 50 right now and raining like crazy!  haha  I love it though.  I got to catch up C for a nice long two hours this afternoon.  Thanks C for sticking around for awhile, it's always soooo good to chat with ya!  ...and I'm sorry 'bout your bird poopy, mud-rain car...  Lol

One of my friends, A, was talking in his blog today about how setting your iPod to shuffle is the best way to determine your horoscope for the day.  It's very interesting, but the more I think about, the more I'd definitely have to agree with his little theory!  That being said - my iPod horoscope for both yesterday and today were great.  Only had to skip the occasional Christmas song...  :)  Check out his awesome post for today here.

"We left after dark, the sun had fallen for the moon, and all the moments raced, it's going way too fast, it's way too soon."  ~Teddy Geiger, Gentlemen

New Soul

Heaven on Earth = Roasted Garlic Triscuit + Onion and Chive Cream Cheese + Spanish Olive.  Oh.  My.  God.  Sooo yummy!!  Thanks B!  :)

"This is a happy end, come and give me your hand, I'll take you far away."  ~Yael Naim, New Soul

If Everyone Cared

I made that Santa Fe salad I mentioned yesterday for dinner last night....  It was horrible.  D can confirm.  And I was so frustrated with the whole thing that we just left everything out til this morning.  haha  I was too frustrated to clean anything.  It was ridiculous.  As a reflection on the rest of my day yesterday, I am not too happy with myself.  I honestly held myself to a higher standard and totally just disregarded what I have worked for so far.  Stupid.

Today hasn't been the best day either.  Not to be all pessimistic or anything - I have been in a really relaxed and pleasant mood - but I just can't wait to get the f*ck off work today.  For the first time in a long, long time, I really did not and do not want to be here.  It doesn't help that B was an ass to me again today.  Sure, I see how *maybe* you think it's funny or something... but honestly, it isn't.  It makes me feel like shit.  From a personal standpoint, I don't care that much cause I don't need everyone to like me - but from a professional standpoint, you need to cool it.  I can tell you know when you've gone too far, but I don't think it should reach that point as often as it does.  You never own up to what you do, but I do appreciate the fact that you try to fix the hurt mood you put me immediately.  And today you did teach me all about "your favorite athlete" Floyd Mayweather Jr. - who looks like a total doucher but seems pretty damn sweet.

I can't wait to go home this weekend.  Not only do I desperately want to see my parent's new kitchen and new carpet downstairs, but I just love to be home with the fam.  Sometimes I can't bear to be there for long, but I am so looking forward to spending most of my weekend up there with them!  I'm hoping to get my hike on while I'm up there too!!  Logan Canyon is just simply beautiful this time of year.  Hopefully most of the snow will be gone, or on it's way out, otherwise I might just have to stick with the Deer Fence...  we shall see!

Day 4:  Planning on walking home from work to get my cardio in for the day.  It's only 3 miles, and all downhill, so I think it should be pretty quick!   Good with pts so far.  I just hope that I keep my cool at Piper Down tonight and stick with my "just one drink" plan.  haha  I'm sure I'll letcha know tomorrow.  :)  Cheers.

"We'll show the world they were wrong, and teach them all to sing along, saying, 'Amen, I'm alive.'"  ~Nickelback, If Everyone Cared

AM Radio

I am a horrible horrible person for not writing yesterday... my apologies!  I had a lot of good things to share too!  Hopefully they all come back to me today.

Yesterday I was the biggest Ms. Cranky Pants ever.  I dunno why I was in such a pessimistic mood...  And it only came later in the day too.  Maybe I was just tired and stressed.  I dunno, but I want to say thank you to C for still being my friend and talking some sense into me!!

At work, I was talking to one of my co-workers about U2 and in his disgust for the band said, "Why is his name The Edge?  People don't call me 'The Corner!'"  haha  I love it.  B, you're too much sometimes.

Day 3:  I did my workout video yesterday morning and am apparently not nearly in as good shape as I thought I was cause I am so f*cking sore today!!  My ass hurts so bad.  However, Day 2 went very well, I stayed under my DPs and earned lotsa APs.  I'm hoping today will be just as good.  As much as I just want to sit around, I'm am going to try to get a workout in after work.  Oh!  And I found this great recipe that looks delicious that I'm going to make tonight - Santa Fe Salad with Chili-Lime Dressing.  YUM.

"There isn't a place that I need to go, there isn't anything that I need to know I did not learn from the radio."  ~Everclear, AM Radio

Easier To Be

Snowed this morning, setting a record here.  Yeah, it sucks that it still snows every week or so, even though it is May, but I have to say that I have been much less annoyed with the snow this year.  I wonder if it's because we had a mild winter or if I know just how incredibly hot it will be here and I prefer the mediocre spring- or fall-like weather or if it's just because it only lasts a few hours and then it melts right away.  Either way, it's kind of interesting how "whatever" I have come to be about the whole situation...  I'm just glad to be less of a complainer.

Day 1:  Going strong.  This past weekend put me right in gear to get back on track.  I just feel so much better when I'm embracing all things healthy.  Not just the eating right and working out, but making sure I'm drinking my water and getting enough sleep and all that good stuff.  I just want that to keep me motivated to reach my goals...  I think the posters were a great idea, I like to not only see my feedback, but I feel like I am held more accountable.  Hell, I also just like putting up my stickers!  haha

"Speaking silence, words can break, it feels like we are falling awake, in a place, in a time of our own, yeah yeah."  ~Lifehouse, Easier To Be

I'm Not Over

Bought myself some brand new Sauconys for running today!!!  Aahh man, I just love them, I've been breaking them in all day.  Told D that I'll break them in over the next few days and debut them at Liberty Park on Wednesday... haha  I just love having new running shoes.

We're officially kicking our summer health goals into gear tomorrow!!  Made posters and everything last night to help us reach our goals and keep ourselves and each other accountable.

My lil bro went to his prom last night.  I am so excited to see the pictures sometime soon, I hear he had a great time with his group of friends.  All the guys were all tuxed out and everything!

Guess that's about it for now, just been enjoying my day off work.  This past week was pretty exhausting so I'm really looking forward to Memorial Day weekend to have my three-day weekend to go home and help my parents get the house ready for everyone to come in June.

"Never took the chance, could've jumped the fence, I was scared of my own two feet, couldn't cross the line, it was black and white, no contrast to be seen."  ~Carolina Liar, I'm Not Over

How Bizarre

I was catching up on my most recent Psychology Today and came across this article on luck.  I just thought I'd share a few things that I found to be particularly insightful in their talking about the differences in the ability of flexible people to spot and seize opportunities versus those who tend to be more rigid and conscientious. 

"Learn to behave more elastically.  Flexible people often respond to the same stimuli differently than do rigid types. Exploring new territory naturally increases good fortune."

"Do something different.  It doesn't even need to be meaningful to your goal.  Breaking behavioral habits can lever changes in mental habits that have kept you from success so far."

"Try to keep your mood positive in order to catch more of the possibilities that whiz by everyday."

"Allow yourself to stray off-task sometimes.  We need to be loose to become aware of hidden opportunities.  Allowing yourself some flexibility in the process can lead to better long-term outcomes."

"Instead of giving in to worry about what could go wrong, think, 'Isn't that interesting?  I'd like to give that a try.'  If you're truly unsure of a decision, ask yourself, 'What's the worst that could happen?'  Think about which action you will regret more in the future.  Sometimes there's a short-term cost, in terms of your resources or stress ... [that results in] a long-term benefit."

I want to try to be less rigid and more flexible.  Not that I think I am particularly unlucky, but I know that I am pretty conscious and tend to fall into my comfort zone.  I want to step out and try new things, meet new people, and be less of a worry-wart.  As M always gives me such crap for, I've really got to stop thinking the ultimate worst and rid myself of this extreme "stranger danger" complex that I've got going.  Sure, it's smart to be cautious, but he's right, I am a little extreme in my thinking.

"Destination unknown, as we pull in for some gas, a freshly pasted poster, reveals a smile from the pack."  ~OMC, How Bizarre

Pride

U2 is kicking off their 2010 U2360 degrees tour in SLC and we just found out today that the concert will be postponed due to Bono's "emergency back surgery for an injury sustained during tour preparation training."  Bono, we all know you're 50 years and still the shit, you can take it a little easier ya old man!  haha  Unfortunately the concert can't be postponed for too long because of the start of the football season, so I hope there are no complications so Rice Eccles Stadium can see the crowd of U2 lovers!

"Free at last, they took your life, they could not take your pride."  ~U2, Pride

You've Already Been

I gotta get motivated.  The past few days have been a joke.  But it starts today.  I've got my plan, I've got drive, I've got a vision.  So this is it!  No more.

"What can I say?  We ate the apple anyway, and you'll wonder when you'll get there, when you've already been."  ~Bayside, You've Already Been

Use Somebody

I read an unknown quote awhile back that read, "a coincidence is a small miracle in which God chooses to remain anonymous" and for as long as I can remember, my mother had always said that there are no such things as coincidences - that God has his hand in everything.  Not that my mom would be pro-destiny or anything like that, but she always talked about how situations and things in life are "meant to be."

After tonight, God is just too damn good in my book.  haha  :)  Thank you Lord.  I couldn't have asked for a better small miracle from you tonight.

...and now I am one hell of a smitten kitten.

"Someone like you and all you know and how you speak, countless lovers under cover of the street, you know that I could use somebody ... someone like you."  ~Kings of Leon, Use Somebody

I Hate Everyone

Prepare for randomness.  Here goes nothing:

1-  Yes, you really are "my favorite," and no, I do not ever lie to you.  2-  I'm sorry I don't seem to know how to handle you anymore... that's my immaturity right there.  3-  I know I need to talk to you, but I have no idea what to say.  4-  You must think I can't see you, but I can.  Don't worry though, I know you mean nothing by it.  5-  Um.  Apparently.  6-  I'm not quite sure why you must say "hello" to me every 12 seconds.  The first one of the day was good enough til tomorrow.  Or if you just wanted to mix it up with a "hey" or "how's it hangin,'" that'd be cool. Kthx.  7-  You are so good for me.  And I'm so glad you're back.  8-  It doesn't really blow my mind anymore, but she must be good for you cause I can tell you're much more laid back and happy.  9-  Thanks for knowing when to lay off.

"He slammed on the brakes but I made a mistake, when I climbed out of my van he was waiting, but he was six three and two hundred pounds of Satan, I hate everyone."  ~Go Set Go, I Hate Everyone

Dani California

I got a headset at work yesterday!!  It's very exciting!  My PT would be very happy with me.  Was a busy day yesterday.  I am just so exhausted and actually think I might be getting sick...  :(  Hope not.  But I had a lot of fun with my girlies last night!  Had plenty of beer and pizza to last me the next few days... Lol  We watched Away We Go and it was so dang cute!  Might have to invest in that movie sometime in the near future.  Really going to miss J this summer...  We're so excited for her though!  Opportunity of a lifetime.

I have a funny random quote of the day that I overheard yesterday.  Two guys were talking to each other about getting an apartment and one of them said to the other, "A loofa?  Dude, I just use my hands."  haha

I rode the bus and TRAX again today!  It was such a quick ride - literally from the moment I stepped out of my place to when I stepped into work was only 27 minutes.  That's crazy!!  I just happened to hit the bus and TRAX right on the nose; I think I only waited about 3 minutes total.  I love it!  Tonight will be the first time I take home, but I imagine things will run just as smooth.  Other than that my day has been pretty uneventful...  C did keep scaring the crap outta me cause apparently I'm an easy target. haha  Oh, and I did get to see M for a little bit!  Was really nice to chat with him, as usual.  At this point, I just cannot wait to go home and go to bed. 

"She's a runner, rebel and a stunner, on her merry way sayin' baby whatcha gonna."  ~Red Hot Chili Peppers, Dani California

Jeremiah Was A Bullfrog

Decided to join Weight Watchers again for the summer.  I still want to lose about 20-25 pounds and WW worked while I was on it last fall!  So I'm going to get back on track with that.

My grades were finally all posted last night!  I finished the semester with a 3.4 GPA.  Woot woot  :D

Guess that's all I have to say for today...  Really not too much going on, I suppose.  That - and the fact that my last post is ages long... haha  I still have a good hour and a half at work, so I'll just add to this should something important/interesting/worth posting comes up.

"And if I were the king of the world, I tell you what I'd do, I'd throw away the cars and the bars in the world, make sweet love to you."  ~Creedence Clearwater Revival, Jeremiah Was A Bullfrog

Winner

I know it's been awhile - I apologize.  I got caught up in this gorgeous weather that we finally got this weekend and kind of spaced all else.

I had a great time with C on Thursday and Friday night!  We can just talk and talk and talk and eat pizza and talk and talk and talk and drink beer and talk and talk and talk and watch FRIENDS and talk and talk and talk forrrrrrrevvvver!  I love it.  And C, I love you, you're the best!  :)

Finally got my hike on this weekend!!  I had the best day with S yesterday.  We went hiking up Millcreek Canyon, did about a 4 mile loop up the canyon and down on Pipeline.  It was just gorgeous up there!  I had really wanted to do the Elbow Fork trail, but it was still snow packed.  We're just going to save that one for later this summer.  I'm glad I have S as a hiking buddy!  We've got a lot of fun hikes tentatively planned for this summer.  We're definitely going to do Mt. Olympus - I still haven't made it all the way to the peak yet.  Last time I was there 2 years ago, we got almost to the rock scramble but it was too snow packed to determine where the trail went so we decided not to figure that out on our own.  So we're doing that one for sure!  I like that we've had a relatively wet, cool spring and early summer, but the snow at the higher elevations just continues to postpone the hiking season, so it was nice to finally get out yesterday.  Hopefully next weekend brings good weather too!  Last night, S BBQed burgers and corn, and we had baked potatoes (sweet for me) and beer, which was by far the best meal I have had in a long time.  It was sooo delicious!!  Definitely the start of a great summer to come.

I finished reading the Glass Castle by Jeannette Walls last night.  It was a great book!  My mom couldn't have said it better - it's amazing that children can go through so much, maintaining such resiliency, and continue on their life with such success, though their parents' were unstable in just about every aspect of their life.  And it's very true.  I loved the book, Walls wrote it in such a way that made it impossible for me to put down.

It was another fantastic day today.  Went running this morning before it got too hot.  4 miles, legs not complaining.  Woot woot!  I just love Liberty Park.  I loved it before I moved over here, but now that I am able to reap its benefits more often, I am just so so so in love with Liberty!  Walked to the Bees game this afternoon with M, sat out on the lawn and had a beer.  Unfortunately the Bees lost to the Albuquerque Isotopes... but that's okay!  I had a good time, nonetheless.  Then I decided that it was most appropriate to have ice cream for dinner to cool down.  :)  I spent a lot of time in the blazing sun this weekend!  I forget how tired just being out in the sun can make you!  Wish I didn't burn so easily... I had to lather on the SPF 50.  haha  So far I'm looking okay though!  Forgot to put sunscreen in the part in my hair, cause that is already beet red and tender as hell.  Damn part.

I am so excited for D to come back tomorrow!!!!!!  I have really missed her and am sooo ready to not have the apartment to myself.

I was watching The Office this week and at the end, Michael says, "at the end of the day we have to choose between living with our self or being happy."  Not that I think those are the two things you ultimately have to choose between at the end of the day, but he's right in that we do have to live with our self.  That being said, I can't do this anymore.  I made a horrible decision to give in to you in the first place, but truth be told, it's wrong.  I can't live with myself.... and you know what?  It doesn't make me happy.  It validated me, for some f*cked up reason, but it's not going to anymore.  This past week, I've taken the time to wrap my head around some things in my past, and I am not happy with that person you encouraged me to me.  I'm done.

Then, I was watching Grey's Anatomy and at the end, Meredith was narrating, saying, "ask most people what they want out of life the answer is simple - to be happy.  Maybe it's this expectation though - the wanting to be happy - that keeps us from ever getting there."  I would have to agree that this tends to be the case for me - in most areas.  It's that expectation.  The expectation to do this, the expectation to do that, that keeps me from learning for myself and living this life for myself.  And you know what, that expectation more than anything, is instilled by me.  I think it's all in my head.  It's what I imagine people are expecting me to do, expecting me to become.  I gotta quit that thinking.  I just have to live.  Just have to be.  And do it for me.  Only then will I truly be free.

This summer I want to let go of my past.  Learn the lessons, but not keep such a tight hold on shit that doesn't f*cking matter and start anew.  Learn to make decisions that make me happy, that help build my relationships with others - not tear them down, and that allow me to live with myself.  I want to be better.  I WANT to be better.

Hopefully the length of this post makes up for my being MIA the past few days.... haha

"I got no time, the talkin' is boring, just look at me soarin', I'm feeling like Jordan."  ~Jamie Foxx feat. Justin Timberlake & T.I., Winner

On Mercury

Okay, it's really getting old.  I understand how you feel cause I've been there, but I don't appreciate that you have to bring it up every chance you get to everyone you meet.  Plus, you can do something about it!  It's not like I just swooped in here and pulled the strings I needed to make it work.  No.  You can do the same thing, I'm nobody special.  I know that I've got people behind me who at least act more adult than you and can accept it, but I wish that you would just cut it out.  At this point I don't know if a reaction is what you want, but you're not getting it.  Not to your face.  I will be friendly and I will maintain being professional, but I thought we were cooler than that.  If it's a joke, it's not funny.  I just hope that by Monday you will have gotten it outta your system, but who really knows.  I'll keep my fingers crossed.

Just a minute ago I was trying to make a joke about a Pharmacy, but couldn't think of the word "Pharmacy" for the life of me - instead the word "Apothecary" came spilling out of my mouth.  haha  It was the weirdest thing ever!!  C, who I was talking to said, "What's next - are you going to be asking for some two part hydrogen, one part oxygen instead of water?"  Crazy.

I'm going to my first ever Bees game tonight!!  It's Thirsty Thursday and 2-for-1 college night tonight!!  Should be a lot of fun!!  :)

"Why don't you let go, shake it off, just redirect my flow, come on let's go."  ~Red Hot Chili Peppers, On Mercury

Sway

I can't believe it's already Wednesday!  This summer is just going to fly by!  I had to stop by RoCo to get a new pound of coffee.  Going for the Costa Rica this time!

I can't decide what I think about how public I want this blog to be.  It has always been and will always will be for me as my outlet... along the same lines as a journal.  I never intended it to be read by anyone else - or at least anyone else who I knew.  My writing was completely free.  Unrestricted.  Limitless.  At the time, I was better off not knowing who, if anyone, was reading my blog.  Now suddenly, people I know, people who are close to me are reading what I have to write.  It's kind of crazy the way things have turned around...  My knowledge of them makes my writing a little less free.  I notice that there are some things that I am a little more reluctant to talk about via this blog.  Yet, it's actually sweet knowing that what I have to say does matter - that people are taking time out of their day to read what I have to say.  That they can see this other side of me and learn some things that I probably otherwise wouldn't just put out there.  I like the change!  It's welcomed, to say the least  :)  I dunno if I'm at the point of being more open about the fact that I have a blog... but I am getting there.  I just need to stop being so worried about saying the wrong thing.  I need to stop caring what other people think.  Have a voice of my own, and trust that I will use it to the best of my ability without giving unreasonable amounts of consideration to how I come off to others, because first and foremost - this blog is for me.  That is the person I want to be.

"Be whoever you have to be, I won't judge you, sing whatever you have to sing to get it out and not become a recluse about how to get it out."  ~The Kooks, Sway

Crash and Burn

Hi there!  As you could probably have guessed, I had a lot of time on my hands at work, thus deciding to give my blog another face lift.  I really like how it finally came out!  I hope everyone is having a nice rainy week so far.  As much as I really love the sunny, warm weather, I am totally all over these rainy days!  I'm kind of in love with it  :)  Yesterday I went on a 3 mile run in the rain and it was just glorious!  Definitely one of the best highs ever.  And!  The great news is that after not running for a few weeks, my legs nor my ankles fudged up!  So hopefully just by keeping a consistent running schedule without drastic mileage increases will keep my legs in good shape.  And keep me sane.  It's all good!

Fight Club was awesome.  Going to have to see it again though!  I actually need to do some more research on it - and sometime I want to read the book - before I see it again.  I have a hard time with movie comprehension and themes and underlying symbolism, especially with movies like these, so I want to get the most out of it!  But I loved the movie.  And I am pretty much in love with Edward Norton and his character.  He was so adorable!

On another note, I am so exhausted again today.  WTF.  And - I got a lot of sleep last night!!  In bed at 10 and up at 9:30... I dunno what the hell is going on.  Aw well.  I'm going to post my new favorite song below - Cooler Than Me by Mike Posner feat. Big Sean.... Love it.  Listen to it, lemme know what you think!

"At least we both know that I tried, and as I crawl those lessons learned, they remind me I survived."  ~Lifehouse, Crash and Burn

Girl America

I am so tired today.  I was accidentally too caffeinated last night and was so physically exhausted, but was wide awake.  So I decided to pass the time by watching Ricky Gervais and Carlos Mencia on YouTube... definitely proved to be one of the best ideas I had all day!  But anyways, I am so very tired today.

Got to get into my summer routine this week!  No more slacking.  Time to, literally, kick my ass into gear.  Got high hopes for this summer!  :)

Going to watch Fight Club for the first time tonight!!  I have never seen it before, but always wanted to so I finally got my hands on a copy!  I can't wait!!

"It's not the circumstances that determine who you're gonna be, but how you deal with these problems and pains that come your way, it's for you that I pray with hope for a brighter day."  ~Mat Kearney, Girl America

Gasoline

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!  I love you, Mom, you're the best mother a daughter could ever have!  xo

I went home for Mother's Day today to celebrate with my mommy as well as my dad and brother's birthday - as mentioned in an earlier post - as well as see my brother's new adorable bunny and clean out my bedroom.  Well, the bunny is so fricken' cute!  Still haven't named her, though I want it to be Jessica, as in Jessica Rabbit.  My mom votes for Funny, as in Funny Bunny...  haha  E didn't like that so much.  So I'll be anxious to hear what he ends up deciding.  Room cleaning went very well!  I threw out a lot of crap and my mom is going to save some good stuff for me.  I was trying on all the clothes that I had left in my closet and when I put on my prom dress, I noticed that it's a little big!  So that was an awesome little surprise.  My mom's whole family is coming up for G's graduation here in about 4 weeks, so I really want to hit the exercise and good eating hard so that I can hopefully drop some more weight and really stun them all.  Here's to getting back on track!  :D

"I was only 21, I wasn't having any fun, and the words you said, tore through my head, like bullets from a gun."  ~The Airborne Toxic Event, Gasoline

Give Me One Reason

At work todaaaaaaayyy - yaaayy yaaayy yayyya.  That was my "I'm at work" song.  I hope you liked it.  haha

I love how fast time flies when you're in good company.  Last night was yet another 3:30am night that just flew by!  It was such great conversation, I really enjoyed it.  I'm glad there are tentative plans for the future, but have to admit that I'm a little confused...  At the very least, I love that our friendship is getting deeper and more mature, so I really can't complain.

This weekend is Mother's Day and my dad and brother's birthday weekend so I'm going home to celebrate with them.  It's such a hit to the wallet!!  haha  I have no idea what to get either of my parents, so I'm going to have to brainstorm that while I'm singing my "I'm at work" song.  I've got to take care of that tonight after work.  I can't wait to get off work cause I've got a lot to take care of before I got home tomorrow.  My kitchen is an absolute mess.  Well - okay that's a lie - it's not a mess by traditional standards, I just have a lot of dishes to do.  BUT!  They are all in the sink, so if you glance in the kitchen, you can't even tell.  Um...  why I felt the need to share that with you all is beyond me...  haha  So I apologize.

Aight.  Guess that's all I have to say about that.  Don't want to bore you any further.  Enjoy your Saturday!  :)

"I don't want no one to squeeze me, they might take away my life, I just want someone to hold me, and rock me through the night."  ~Tracy Chapman, Give Me One Reason

One Week

CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR GRADUATION ERIN AND SUJAL  :D

I don't really have much to say today... I have been really busy in the past 24 hours trying to pull everything together.  It's been nice to be occupied with all that while D is gone, cause otherwise I just mope around.  So, yeah.  TGIF

"You try to match wits, you try to hold me, but I bust through, gonna make a break and take a fake, I'd like a stinkin' achin' shake, I like vanilla cause it's the finest of the flavors."  ~Barenaked Ladies, One Week

Tainted Love

Okay now it's time for my random little rants/comments.  I realized that it's been awhile since I've expressed any, so here we go!  And J loves the rant... haha So J this is for you.  :)

1)  Why do you always come to me to bitch about her?  Is that all we have in common, or something?  2)  Sober you is more fun than drunken you - yet, rarely do I see sober you anymore.  3)  Your attitude is awesome for customer service but I like it better when you're a real person-person.  4)  Never has anyone made me feel so comfortable.  Ever.  Thank you.  5)  We both have the same goal.... will you support me, please?!  6)  You're so much fun when you aren't being so serious.  7)  That was the nicest surprise!  You're too sweet.  8)  Just go get laid already.

"Sometimes I feel I've got to, run away, I've got to get away."  ~Soft Cell, Tainted Love

Take On Me

80's music at work today...  yeaaaaah.  Love it!  :)

I'm not perfect.  And there are so many things that I need to work on to get through life without being a person I never wanted to be.  It'll take a lot of work on my part, but I'm up to the challenge.  My self-deemed "heart of stone" needs to soften up - a lot.  My mom had always told me that leaving and going to college was for me.  A time to be selfish, a time to not worry about anything or anyone else but myself.  Unfortunately, I took that advice too extremely... because I am coming to realize that some decisions I have made out of selfishness were not the kind my mom meant.  And I feel horrible.

I need to get my priorities straight.  I need work on seeing things from others people's perspectives, put myself in their shoes.  I need to remember the Golden Rule.  I've got a lot to work on.... And not just to help my relationships with other people, but also to help myself.  To learn from the past, but keep it behind me.  To start anew.  To grow.  To mature.  For my happiness and success.

The next ten days will be good for us.  Then - a fresh start.  Because I don't know what I'd do without you.

"So needless to say I'm odds and ends, but that's me stumbling away, slowly learning that life is okay."  ~a-ha, Take On Me

Garden Party

Second day in the general books department went very well!  I'm feeling much more comfortable and confident with the department and working with customers face to face and all that jazz.  It's pretty awesome to get to be out on the floor!  I really enjoy the change.  Still love being at the desk though!  I am so blessed that I am able to do both this summer.

I must still be really behind on my sleep cause I had a rough time getting up this morning.  And I slept in much later than I originally wanted to!!  I guess it's my summer, so really it's not that big a deal.  It's what time of year is for, right?!  haha  I guess I shouldn't be complaining - there are much worse things.  I just like to be productive in the morning is all.  Aw well, better luck tomorrow!

Going to be celebrating Cinco de Mayo tonight with a margarita!!    Cheers :)

"But it's alright now, I learned my lesson well, you see you can't please everyone, so you got to please yourself."  ~Ricky Nelson, Garden Party

Walk The Line

This is totally random, but I just have to get it out.... ready, set, release:

Why would this be weighing on me?  I know I didn't do anything wrong, I know nothing bad can come of it...  I just can't stop thinking about it, but I need to stop obsessing.  I wouldn't take it back by any means.  I guess I could have done things differently.

But you know what, no.  I could have done things differently, sure, but who would that be benefiting?  Not even me.  I just need to stop worrying about something that hasn't happened, stop assuming the worst, and handle whatever comes as it comes.  Yeah.

The End.

Aaaahhhh relief.  I feel muuuuuch better.  :)

"I keep you on my mind both day and night and happiness I've known proves that it's right."  ~Johnny Cash, Walk The Line

The Man Who Can't Be Moved

I got a washer!  I got a washer!  I got a washer, hey hey hey hey!

I got a dryer!  I got a dryer!  I got a dryer, hey hey hey hey!

I got my couch covers!  I got my couch covers!  I got my couch covers, hey hey hey hey!

D and I finally got our washer and dryer and couch covers today!!  The washer and dryer was delivered by this quirky dude who was a little sketch and the washers had apparently been sitting in a warehouse - or something like that - so they were dirty as hell.  They are a really nice set though!!  Only about 6 years old and work fine from what we can tell so far...  And the couch covers are simply awesome.  They are a pretty blue and really bring our entire living room together and just look so nice!  It's super exciting that things are coming together so nicely!  Happy summer 2010 to me!  :)

"Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows, if she changes her mind this is the first place she will go."  ~The Script, The Man Who Can't Be Moved

I'm Free

Sorry for not posting yesterday!  I worked my first summer shift and spend the rest of the day studying for my last two finals that were this morning - and went AWESOME, btw.  I was thinking about it, this is the first semester that I have felt so incredibly prepared for all my finals thanks to having all great professors this semester!  Though I did do some definite complaining, this was probably one of my best semesters ever.  We'll have to see how my GPA fares though... All the finals went very well, but I did do some half-assing on other assignments and quizzes.

That being said - my summer freedom is official!!!  Woot woot :D  Stress relief - here I come!!

"Cause I'm free to do what I want, to be what I want, any old time, and I'm free to be who I choose, to get my own booze, any old time."  ~Soup Dragons, I'm Free

Walk On The Ocean

It's May!!  Of course, you never'd be able to guess it because of the snow and freezing weather we've had this past week...  That's the state of Utah for you.

It has been a wonderful weekend so far and I imagine that today is not going to be any different.  Yesterday I took walk around my new neighborhood and I'm pretty much in love with it!  I also started reading The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold and it's really good so far.  The movie just came out this past year and I originally said there was no way in hell I was going to see it, but after Stanley Tucci got his Academy Award Nominee, I would really love to see his performance.  However, I hear the movie is different than the book - as usual - I want to read the book first so that is what I base the movie on, instead of vice versa.  Also, because of the nature and premise of the story, I'd like to prepare myself for what to expect in the movie.  I will be glad when my last finals are over this week to get my summer reading on.  I had a reading list last summer, but I only got to half the books.  This summer there are some books that I definitely want to get to and a ton of others that I have heard good reviews on that I want to add to the list.  Sujal, I never got to The Eyre Affair so that one is definitely at the top of my list this summer  :)

Okay, I suppose that's all I've got to say for now!  I need to get studying so I can enjoy myself later tonight.

"They knew we were lying, but we smiled just the same, it seemed they'd already forgotten we'd came."  ~Toad and the Wet Sprocket, Walk On The Ocean