Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Something New

Hello everyone!

I have made the official decision to move from this blog from blogspot to WordPress.

Come along with me by clicking here.

And here's to moving on to bigger and better things!  :)

"We all need a fix, I guess I need one too, but I’m trying madly to calm these nerves, with something new."  ~The Airborne Toxic Event, Something New

Lucky Star

Today has been an interesting day so far.  I feel complainy.  I just want to sit around and complain about shit that doesn’t matter.  Not that I would consider myself to be in a bad mood or anything like that… I just think that being all complainy sounds like fun today.  That being said, I’m bipolar about my hair today.  First, it was shitty looking.  Then, it seemed fine.  Then I really loved it.  Then I thought it looking shitty again…  My poor hair!  Can’t catch a break.  I dunno what I think of it right now cause I’m too busy thinking about wanting to complain about the heat.  And my shoes.  And the fact that I’m hungry and at work.  God, it’s just one of those days!  I don’t like it.  I don’t care for myself like this cause all of my complainy thoughts just consume me.

I am starting to notice the downfalls of now being active and exercising enough.  I was actually talking to A about it earlier today (before I got in trouble for being too chatty) and I have been so unmotivated lately.  Weirdly enough, I am more tired and worn out and have had this constant headache and am breaking out and am just less wanting to do stuff.  I need to start getting back in my groove to exercising.  Cause it sucks to feel like this.  Maybe that’s why I just want to be all complainy too.  Hmm...

“And when I’m lost you’ll be my guide, I just turn around and your by my side.”  ~Madonna, Lucky Star

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Electric Avenue

So I think it’s safe to say that I am blog-tarded. haha I am having a really hard time trying to figure all the features of WordPress! S has told me on numerous occasions and after seeing how much better the same Pearls Before Swine cartoon looked on his page, I am actually considering taking this blog to WordPress.  A part of me just wants to quit trying and go back to what I know here at blogspot… but at the same time, I am so determined to figure this shit out to make the switch! I might need someone who is WordPress literate over my shoulder to help me out here shortly to keep my frustration at bay.

I also am just an idiot in general... here are two recent situations in which I condsider myself idiot-worthy.  First, I got this new plant garden thingy that is super cute!  It's about a 4-ounce pot and had a condensed dirt pellet and some seeds and picture instructions that were:  1) put dirt in pot, 2) pour 2 ounces of water in the pot, 3) add seeds.  Well I did all that.  But then it didn't tell me what to do next.  So the next day I gave it some water...  Well, "some" is a considerable understatement.  Cause I'm pretty positive I drowned my f*cking plant.  :(  Okay, situation number two.  Decided that it would be an awesome idea to shower today.  Since I'm basically a hippie anymore and try to shower as little as I can get away with (thanks C for showing me the great perks of hippie-ness), it was actually one of the best ideas I've had all day.  I also thought that it would be a wonderful idea to start the dishwasher cause it was full and the dishes were dirty!  Also a stellar idea.  However, like the idiot I am, I started the dishwasher AND THEN jumped in the shower...  yeah, I got both scalded and frost bite multiple times in that 20 minute period.  I'm pretty sure that was God's way of punishing me for having two such good ideas in quick succession.  I think I deserve that Idiot of the Day award.  In fact, I've already got my acceptance speech all ready...  :)

“Workin’ so hard like a soldier, can’t afford a thing on TV.” ~Eddy Grant, Electric Avenue

Monday, June 21, 2010

What It's Like

Okay. Ima say this real quick, so don't blink. Since the beginning of this year with him being featured in some really stellar singles and his immense talent and pretty much the fact that he is *the* one and only successful white rapper, even now in his late 30s...  God. I never thought that I'd be one to admit this.... IamdefinitelyanEminemfannow. There. I said it.  Don't make me use the "f" word again.

That being said, enjoy Love The Way You Lie, Eminem feat. Rihanna below. These two artists put together are phenomenal, in my opinion!

"God forbid you ever had to walk a mile in his shoes, cause then you really might know what it's like to sing the blues."  ~Everlast, What It's Like

Hallelujah

Found myself another hilarious blog today!  I'm Not Benny.  This dude's name is Tim and the opening line of his profile is "I was born on my birthday, which I always thought was considerate timing on my part."  haha  How could you not already love this guy?!  Check it out.

Had one of the most kick ass dinners tonight, thanks to my "wifey" D.  Rotisserie chicken, corn, dark greens and stuffed mushrooms.  YUM.

I can't believe I'm not fallen over asleep yet.  It has been a long ass day, and of course - like an idiot - I did not go to bed early like I should have.  I do have to say that reflecting on the day that has past, I can't say that I am particularly proud of some decisions I made.  It was a good day, yes.  But it was not one of those great days.  Sitting here now that it's about over I can't say that I am too pleased with myself.  I'm happy!  But disgusted.  Aw well, guess I can just hope for a better tomorrow!

"Maybe I've been here before, I know this room, I've walked this floor."  ~Rufus Wainwright, Hallelujah

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Boston

Went walking around Liberty Park for the first time in awhile.  First time I had visited since the oil leak fiasco... which is still slowly coming along, but not 100% and makes me really sad now that the problem has hit - literally - so close to home.  Anyway!  It's a gorgeous day out today and I had a great time and almost wanted to just keep going around and around but decided that 4 miles was plenty.  There were a few interesting/awesome characters at the park today (as usual) and now that I'm home, I thought I'd write a few of the best ones little anonymous notes from myself:

Dear Veteran Roller Skating Dancing Singing Dude,

Never have I witnessed someone having as much fun on old-school roller skates.  You were jammin' to your tunes via those sweet spins and moves on your skates, all while singing aloud and waving at everyone you passed - myself included, each of the 4+ times you passed me.  I could tell that Short Asian Man who was rollerblading behind you was jealous of your speed, talent, and charisma.  And your skates.  And your hat.  And your short shorts.  I look forward to seeing a future performance from you in the future.  And thank you for serving our country.

Yours,
Amanda

Dear Sunburned Toothpick-Limbed Thick Shirtless Short Man,

Can I buy you some sunscreen and aloe vera?  When you ran passed me all I could think about was how much your skin must be in pain.  And how short your shorts were.  And the fact that your t-shirt was in your hand and not on.  It also amazed me that your short legs and arms were barely there, they were so skinny!  You were pretty speedy though...  Keep it up.  Consider sunscreen.

Sincerely,
Amanda

Dear "Reading" Wheelchair Guy,

You need to spruce up your "staring at the running women" skills.  Clearly you weren't reading your book, nor did you make much of an effort to even pretend you were.  Maybe consider not sitting so close to the path, or wearing sunglasses, or not moving your head so obviously when staring at the running women.  Then again, you are a man... and I can't think of a man who successful ogles at women unnoticeably... so maybe you're off the hook...

You're welcome,
Amanda

Dear Biker Dad With The Cute Little Bike-Riding Kiddos,

What a great way to spend Father's Day!  Your kids are adorable and you guys seemed to be having the best time!  I loved following you guys for that short time and wish that I had spent my morning biking around with my dad!  Too cute.  Happy Father's Day.

Cheers,
Amanda

"Essential yet appealed, carry all your thoughts across an open field."  ~Augustana, Boston

The Undeveloped Story

A girl couldn't have asked for a better father.  You mean the world to me, Dad.  Thank you for all that you have taught me and for being one of the greatest role models in my life.  I love you more than words can express.  You are my man forever.  Today, this one's for you.  LOVE YOU DADDY!  Happy Father's Day  :)
























"I think I'm in love with clamor, tides are turning, never understood my undeveloped story."  ~Anberlin, The Undeveloped Story

Friday, June 18, 2010

Breathe

Found a new, hilarious blog to follow thanks to D.  Hyperbole and a half.  Illustrated stories of silliness and adulthood that are all real life.  Hope you enjoy it as much as I have so far today!  I have been busting my gut - both her writing and her pictures alone and together make for such funny stories!

I'm tired today.  I think this past week of fun-having has just worn me out.  Sure, I've been getting a decent amount of sleep and everything... I think it's social exhaustion.  Not that I'm sick of people or sad or just want to be isolated or anything.  I'm just all talked out and would love to just chill and just be in the presence of those people who I am most comfortable with.  That would be my perfect way to end this Friday.  Quiet.  Glass of wine in hand.  Soaking in the sun with some of my favorite peeps.

"There's a light at each end of this tunnel, you shout 'cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out."  ~Anna Nalick, Breathe

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Changes In The Weather

A few random comments:

- The Wasatch Back Relay is this weekend and I have to admit that the runner in me is rather jealous.  I wish my knees were cooler with the whole training scene.

- Can't wait to go home and enjoy a glass of wine on my porch and just hang out in this gorgeous summer weather.

- Go Celtics!  A part of me wants to find some buddies to go to the bar and watch the game with!  But I am not sure who I would ask...  Too bad I'm not just with my uncle.  He's the most fun to watch a Lakers game with.  Especially cause there's Coors Light involved.  Lots of Coors Light.

- Father's Day this weekend.  Already.  Hmmm... guess I need to shop for a gift!

- On accident, my hair came out so damn good today.  I kind of am not sure if I'm going to shower or even lay on it ever again, it looks so pretty.  haha

"On the highest mountain tops, just wanna hold that breath forever, I'm dancing in the clouds, with my feet still on the ground."  ~Barefoot Truth, Changes In The Weather

Sugar We're Going Down

Because of a recommendation from M, I finally joined goodreads today!  I actually like the site more than I was expecting to - so far.  It's a social cataloging site that you can sign up for a create an account for free to discuss and post about current, past, and future books that you're reading.  Though it seems like my "to-read" list continues to grow at a faster rate than I can actually get books finished, I am always looking for more books to read!  I have been browsing this site for quite some time today and so far I'm loving it.  Sign up, add me as a friend, and start getting your own library together!

"I'm just a notch in your bedpost, but you're just a line in a song."  ~Fall Out Boy, Sugar We're Going Down

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

You Already Know

Black roads glisten
The sound of cars racing
Through the puddles

Cooler winds whistle
Bringing that sweet smell
Of dirt and renewal

Bare arms outstretched
Showered from obligation
In refreshing rejoice

Crisp droplets gleam
Little glances of heaven
Falling to earth

"It just ain't at where it's at for me anymore, so don't let the door hit you when you leave."  ~Train, You Already Know

Love The Way You Lie

Learned a few new things the other day that I hadn't given thought to previously.  I thought I'd share them because I found them so interesting and because they are two things that I hope to incorporate in my life. 

First is the concept of the Platinum Rule versus the Golden Rule.  The Golden Rule states that you are supposed to "treat others as you would want to be treated."  Well - even better - the Platinum Rule is that you should "treat others the way that they want to be treated."  Considering others.  Hmmm.  There's a thought.  Not that I would say that I'm inconsiderate, but I definitely could get better at this Platinum Rule thing!

Another thing we were talking about was the concept of the grass being greener where you water it.  Not the other side!  Where you make the effort and nourish it and give it what it needs.  Taking this into account as it applies to life - going through something with full force, giving it your all, and having faith in it.  Just working with what you have in front of you and not just wanting to be on "the other side."  Because you can have it just as good, and probably even better, where you put your efforts, no matter what they are.

"Now you get to watch her leave out the window, guess that's why they call it window pane."  ~Eminem feat. Rihanna, Love The Way You Lie

Anchor

I want to officially announce that I have decided I want to make a career in Human Resources.  I had talked around the issue in previous posts, but didn't realize that I hadn't come right out and said it.  It came to me during my deemed "Weekend of Clarity" when I was home for my brother's graduation party.  I was actually sitting in Mass with the whole fam and was pretty pessimistic about being there cause it was taking forever, I was hot, I was hungry, my pants were bothering me, I was tired, Fr.'s homily wasn't really making any sense, I wasn't in the moment, etc. - basically just wishing I had stayed at home.  I remember just closing my eyes and all was silent, and it was then that I heard God for the first time in a long time.  In my stillness, I came to the reassuring decision that HR is what I want to go into with full force.  And, like my previous posts have reflected, never have I felt so clear in my entire life.  Though I was so sure and so thankful for God's little chat with me, Mass was only halfway done and I could hardly sit still, I just wanted to call D and tell her.  haha

Since I have come to that decision, I have actually ran with it as fast as I can.  I have gotten involved in the Society for Human Resource Management (SHRM) and am in a leadership position at the U of U student chapter, as well as a member of the local SL chapter and at the national level.  I attended my first SL SHRM Luncheon this week!  It went really well and was very interesting and actually a lot of fun!  I didn't do much on the networking side, only because I was unfamiliar with the process and didn't have someone to guide me along.  I will be glad when D comes with S and I next month and can show us the ropes.

D has also been helping me tremendously at work with building my experience and is just such a huge asset in things even as basic as helping me beef up my resume.  So I have to give her a big, big "thank you" cause without her, I'd still be in square one.  She's also just a great mentor and is such an amazing role model to me in more ways than one.  I need to make a better point of making sure she knows it...

"Hold my hand, while I'm sinking in the sand, no one else could understand."  ~ Lifehouse, Anchor

Monday, June 14, 2010

Dance

Aaahhh man...  All I can say is, I haven't been this freakin' excited and anxious and nervous and EXCITED in awhile!!  Gonna be such a fun night.  I can't even wait to get off work!  6 o'clock cannot come fast enough!  :)

"Release my soul, bring life back to these bones, and let me fly away with you."  ~Lifehouse, Dance

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Mmm Mmm Mmm Mmm

Aahh Sunday.  I had no intent of doing much of anything today and yet, it's not even 1 pm and I have already done my workout for the day - which was sufficiently horrible by the way.  That Jillian Michaels sure is a bitch.  haha  I am going to be hella sore tomorrow.  Truth be told, it was a great workout.  So if you're looking for a good workout DVD, I've liked all of the ones with Jill, today was The Biggest Loser's Last Chance Workout.

I just started reading the book The Road by Cormac McCarthy on Friday because I hear it's so good.  And I hadn't realized that they made it a movie this past winter, so I also want to see it once I'm finished.  From what my dad tells me, the book is so much better and the movie doesn't add much - which is what I would have expected - but I always like to compare the two.  I've talked to a few people who saw the movie without reading the book and they have said that it's just depressing and horrible, to say the least - which is also expected.  So far the book is amazing, McCarthy has this style of writing that makes the book hard to put down.  More on that once I'm finished...

I know this past week my posts have been full of my renewed outlook on my life ahead of me.  Although I don't wish to bore you any further with the basically the same post again today, I just have to say that reflecting on the past week, I am so glad to feel like I have a place in this life.  That being said, the need for me to figure out how to and BE a sister to my brothers hasn't so much come to my attention as it has been thrown in my face.  It's something that I need to figure out - and quickly.

On a more humorous note, you wanna know how long it takes me to choose two bottles of wine out at the liquor store?  Approximately 45 minutes.  hahaha  D can tell you what it's like following me back and forth and back and forth indecisively for almost an hour when I originally said, "I'm going to stop at the liquor store real quick."

"She couldn't quite explain it, they'd always just been there."  ~Crash Test Dummies, Mmm Mmm Mmm Mmm

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Chelsea Dagger

Dear Neighbor,

Your guitar playing is so awful, never have I ever wanted to cut my ears off.  Sure, we do appreciate that you have turned off the amp and that you don't play between 8pm and 8am - but if you could move your daily jam sesh to another zip code, that would be awesome.

Sincerely,
Your Suicidal Neighbors

"I said tell me your name, is it sweet?  She said my boy it's Dagger, oh yeah."  ~The Fratellis, Chelsea Dagger

Friday, June 11, 2010

So Rich, So Pretty

Never have I
known such clarity.
Been so content.
Been so happy.
Felt in place.
Felt forgiveness.
Felt grace.

I have been waiting for this time, to know this life for so long.  Now that it's here, the changes I can see in so many different aspects of my life are simply astounding.  I couldn't have done it with out the help of my close friends and family.  This is the definition of life - and it's painted with so many colors.

"Money from mommy lovely in Versace, costly sprees, it's on at Barney's, and I love to watch her go through fifty Gs calmly."  ~Mickey Avalon, So Rich, So Pretty

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

OMG

I have to send a special thank ya out to D today for lending me her cute shoes AND adorable necklace!  I got lotsa compliments, so thanks for having much cuter accessories than me...  haha

Today has been a pretty good day so far, I've still got a lot to do tonight.  I'm very excited about my little date with C later!  We've started our weekly summer tradition of hitting up Diva's for a drink, a cupcake, and to catch up on everything.  I love it  :)  I've also got to go grocery shopping later... A is finally coming over to see the place and I'm making her dinner.  Well - that - and the fact that I've got no food.

I've gotten into a Seinfeld kick for the first time in awhile!  M and my dad have let me borrow a few seasons, so I've been watching that regularly for the past week.  It's just so good!  I kind of can't believe that I don't own the seasons myself...  Maybe that'll be my gift to myself here in the near future... hmmm.

"Girl you know I'm loving your, loving your style, check check check check check checking you out."  ~ Usher feat. Will.I.Am, OMG

Super Freak

Okay, I just have to bitch about something real quick...

WTF do you expect me say to you - let alone reply - after that note!?  What good did you think would come of that?  I honestly don't get it.  I'm not going to "shun" you, but at the same time you need to understand what I'm telling you.  There is probably more that I could tell you... but I know that if the situation were swapped, they are things that I myself would not want to hear.  I'm sorry that things didn't happen in your favor, but it's not my fault.  Yep, you're right, there is tension there.  And as much as I wish I could handle this passively and probably with much more maturity... I can't.

Thank you to A for helping see through this situation the most clearly.  You hit it right on the nose in reminding me that I can't be responsible for your reactions and feelings.  The terms are different and how you deal with them is not my problem.  Thanks, A, I feel so much better after talking this through with you.  :)

"She's a very kinky girl, the kind you don't take home to mother, she will never let your spirits down."  ~Rick James, Super Freak

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Everyday Is A Winding Road

What a day.  If I could think of anything to describe how things have changed for me most recently, I'd have to say "word vomit."  Seriously, I can't shut up!  I don't think I'm being annoying - but I might actually just be.  Just tell me to shove it, I understand.  I just feel like there's so much that I want to talk about!  And that's such a good thing.  For so so long, I had nothing to say.  I didn't feel like it really mattered what I had to say, nor did I think it was important.  Not that I think what I have to say now is that interesting or dire or critical, by any means...  but just to feel like I'm able to talk has already felt really good.  Not only can I not type fast enough today it seems, but I just can't wait to get home and talk to D!!

I don't want to do today.  But I need to get it f*cking over with.  Cause now it's just ridiculous and I feel like it's the one last thing that's holding me back.  After today, I will finally feel completely resolved of all my past problems... not that they are even all fixed or back to normal.  No.  But they will have all been addressed so I can continue to move forward to becoming better.

I had a great meeting about becoming a member of SHRM - the Society for Human Resource Management - on campus!  I'm really looking forward to getting more involved and reaching for my dream of working in HR.  I feel like the journey officially started this morning, and I couldn't be more thrilled.

"I'm just wondering why I feel so all alone, why I'm a stranger in my own life."  ~Sheryl Crow, Everyday Is A Winding Road

Monday, June 7, 2010

Climb

I have a lot to say!  I've been seriously slacking in the posting-on-my-blog department lately, but I have honestly been a little too swamped with life for the past little bit.  I am a bigger fan of shorter posts, so instead of doing one that's forever long, I'll post a few times today along different lines.  Happy reading :)

"When the money's out, stand, climb, and fall, you carry the world, can't carry your hope."  ~ Lifehouse, Climb

Wash

Clarity.

As for me, this weekend has been the greatest blessing.  Even going as far back as convos I had earlier last week, I couldn't have asked for anything better.  Not only did I not see it coming, but I have to say that I am so thankful for not being afraid to speak up.  And better yet, I am so thankful that I was able to listen.  I have never known such clarity.  Never felt so good about MY life.

Among getting some answers to things I have been in limbo about for so long, I learned a lot about myself.  Learned a lot about life and how I need to treat mine like it is mine.  I learned that shock is not the same as disappointment and never could I disappoint.  I learned about the importance of being a sister.  Being on the side of desperately wanting to be forgiven, I learned the importance of forgiveness.  I learned to take it all in.  To see the different sides.  To explore the different sides.  To talk.  To forgive.  To live.  Bygones are bygones, and we can't chance the past.  But we can change our future.  I can change my future.

That being said, I have some thank yous.  D, C, T, M, S, B - if you haven't heard the "thank you" come out of my mouth yet, it's coming.  I have you guys to thank for such a clear future ahead of me.  So thank you for being there, for lending an ear, for your forgiveness, for helping me be me.  You have no idea how much I appreciate you.  And God?  He's all things great.

"All my life, never found my place, until I felt the sunlight on my face, my sunshine."  ~Lifehouse, Wash

Undone

G's Graduation.

Damn my mom's fam sure knows how to have a good time!  It was great to be home with them this weekend.  My 13 year old cousin J and 12 year old cousin C were having a blast playing "soda pong" which had to be one of the most entertaining things ever.  Also, thank you B for taking such good care of me.  Though I want to blame it on sleep deprivation, I promise I'm not that usually that klutzy after half a beer!  haha  But, I mean, that wasn't the first time that happened, so really, what can I say...  Anyways, you know it was a great party when ALL of us woke up hungover the next day.  It was fantastic.  :)  And Dad - you're so so dang silly when you drink a lot.  We all loved it!  And I love you!

"Tell me everything you need now, anything at all, and I will be the one waiting anytime you fall."  ~Lifehouse, Undone

In Your Skin

Inventory.

Went by much faster and much smoother than I could have imagined.  It was my first official one and though there's a lot pessimistic views when it comes to inventory, my experience was nothing but good!  Wish I could have gotten a little more sleep the night before, but I would have had to skip out on a very important birthday party and I wasn't about to even consider sleep over said person's party.  :)  I do have to say that - while the events of Friday night were collectively so very good thanks to great friends, incredibly hilarious  ("...and then he stabbed him!") delicious (mmm sweet potato fries), and just a whole lot of fun all night long -  we aren't quite sure what you were thinking.  But it was a great time, it's a good group of friends we've got going on!

"Face the truth, it's hard to swallow, it's time to begin, there's only one life."  ~Lifehouse, In Your Skin

Thursday, June 3, 2010

That Don't Impress Me Much

Man, I have really been neglecting this blog over the past few!  I need to step it up, get back in the game.

I wanted to share a really cool stop motion video C posted on her blog!  You can find it here.  Check it out, check her blog out.  :)

The past few days have been REALLY good.  Really, really good.  Actually, the past week has been really good!  This is how things are supposed to be.  I'm glad we're back.  I'd say this past week has set the stage for a great summer.  I can't even wait!

"And all that extra hold gel in your hair oughta lock it, 'cause heaven forbid it should fall outta place."  ~Shania Twain, That Don't Impress Me Much

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Don't Know Why

June 1st!!  Already?!  Damn.

I totally didn't mean to go so long without posting, this past weekend was just so incredibly busy for me.  But I loved every minute of it - even to the point of not wanting to come back because I was too busy staring at the gorgeous new hardwood floors and playing with Bun Bun.  haha  But now that I'm here it is nice to be back to my life, back at work, back at my and D's most lovely little abode that is looking so damn good!  One little thing though... Memorial Day drivers are insane.  That drive home was stressful as hell cause the drivers were all crazy.  No bueno.

Well... I feel like I've got a lot to say, but nothing I particularly want to share.

"I wished that I could fly away, 'stead of kneeling in the sand, catching teardrops in my hand."  ~Norah Jones, Don't Know Why