Little Fire

I should have written yesterday, but didn't because I was so busy. I apologize!

Tuesday night I had a very long, very good, looong overdue chat with one of my dearest friends J. Sobbed like a fool and was, to quote my post, "an utter wreck." But it was one of the best talks about life have had with anyone in awhile. Long story short, I am so thankful for you J and I miss you more than you know.

That being said, I went to bed feeling optimistic. Here he was, telling it like it was, offering his "Gwampa J" words of wisdom, and assuring me that life isn't the way I'm thinking it should be. After being a blubbering idiot for over an hour, I was all cried out and actually sensing I could see a dim light at the end of a very dark tunnel. When I woke up, it was a brand new day. And I felt WORTH IT. Sunny. Peaceful. Kissed by God. What he said sank in overnight and I can feel that I'm starting to get a feel for what life is supposed to be. For who I am supposed to be. I just hope and pray that I can make the change. This life is for me. I'm worth it!

"All that I want is one who knows me, a kind hand on my face when I weep, and I'd give back these things I know are meaningless." ~Patty Griffin (feat. Emmylou Harris), Little Fire