Anchor

I want to officially announce that I have decided I want to make a career in Human Resources.  I had talked around the issue in previous posts, but didn't realize that I hadn't come right out and said it.  It came to me during my deemed "Weekend of Clarity" when I was home for my brother's graduation party.  I was actually sitting in Mass with the whole fam and was pretty pessimistic about being there cause it was taking forever, I was hot, I was hungry, my pants were bothering me, I was tired, Fr.'s homily wasn't really making any sense, I wasn't in the moment, etc. - basically just wishing I had stayed at home.  I remember just closing my eyes and all was silent, and it was then that I heard God for the first time in a long time.  In my stillness, I came to the reassuring decision that HR is what I want to go into with full force.  And, like my previous posts have reflected, never have I felt so clear in my entire life.  Though I was so sure and so thankful for God's little chat with me, Mass was only halfway done and I could hardly sit still, I just wanted to call D and tell her.  haha

Since I have come to that decision, I have actually ran with it as fast as I can.  I have gotten involved in the Society for Human Resource Management (SHRM) and am in a leadership position at the U of U student chapter, as well as a member of the local SL chapter and at the national level.  I attended my first SL SHRM Luncheon this week!  It went really well and was very interesting and actually a lot of fun!  I didn't do much on the networking side, only because I was unfamiliar with the process and didn't have someone to guide me along.  I will be glad when D comes with S and I next month and can show us the ropes.

D has also been helping me tremendously at work with building my experience and is just such a huge asset in things even as basic as helping me beef up my resume.  So I have to give her a big, big "thank you" cause without her, I'd still be in square one.  She's also just a great mentor and is such an amazing role model to me in more ways than one.  I need to make a better point of making sure she knows it...

"Hold my hand, while I'm sinking in the sand, no one else could understand."  ~ Lifehouse, Anchor

Dance

Aaahhh man...  All I can say is, I haven't been this freakin' excited and anxious and nervous and EXCITED in awhile!!  Gonna be such a fun night.  I can't even wait to get off work!  6 o'clock cannot come fast enough!  :)

"Release my soul, bring life back to these bones, and let me fly away with you."  ~Lifehouse, Dance

Mmm Mmm Mmm Mmm

Aahh Sunday.  I had no intent of doing much of anything today and yet, it's not even 1 pm and I have already done my workout for the day - which was sufficiently horrible by the way.  That Jillian Michaels sure is a bitch.  haha  I am going to be hella sore tomorrow.  Truth be told, it was a great workout.  So if you're looking for a good workout DVD, I've liked all of the ones with Jill, today was The Biggest Loser's Last Chance Workout.

I just started reading the book The Road by Cormac McCarthy on Friday because I hear it's so good.  And I hadn't realized that they made it a movie this past winter, so I also want to see it once I'm finished.  From what my dad tells me, the book is so much better and the movie doesn't add much - which is what I would have expected - but I always like to compare the two.  I've talked to a few people who saw the movie without reading the book and they have said that it's just depressing and horrible, to say the least - which is also expected.  So far the book is amazing, McCarthy has this style of writing that makes the book hard to put down.  More on that once I'm finished...

I know this past week my posts have been full of my renewed outlook on my life ahead of me.  Although I don't wish to bore you any further with the basically the same post again today, I just have to say that reflecting on the past week, I am so glad to feel like I have a place in this life.  That being said, the need for me to figure out how to and BE a sister to my brothers hasn't so much come to my attention as it has been thrown in my face.  It's something that I need to figure out - and quickly.

On a more humorous note, you wanna know how long it takes me to choose two bottles of wine out at the liquor store?  Approximately 45 minutes.  hahaha  D can tell you what it's like following me back and forth and back and forth indecisively for almost an hour when I originally said, "I'm going to stop at the liquor store real quick."

"She couldn't quite explain it, they'd always just been there."  ~Crash Test Dummies, Mmm Mmm Mmm Mmm

Chelsea Dagger

Dear Neighbor,

Your guitar playing is so awful, never have I ever wanted to cut my ears off.  Sure, we do appreciate that you have turned off the amp and that you don't play between 8pm and 8am - but if you could move your daily jam sesh to another zip code, that would be awesome.

Sincerely,
Your Suicidal Neighbors

"I said tell me your name, is it sweet?  She said my boy it's Dagger, oh yeah."  ~The Fratellis, Chelsea Dagger

So Rich, So Pretty

Never have I
known such clarity.
Been so content.
Been so happy.
Felt in place.
Felt forgiveness.
Felt grace.

I have been waiting for this time, to know this life for so long.  Now that it's here, the changes I can see in so many different aspects of my life are simply astounding.  I couldn't have done it with out the help of my close friends and family.  This is the definition of life - and it's painted with so many colors.

"Money from mommy lovely in Versace, costly sprees, it's on at Barney's, and I love to watch her go through fifty Gs calmly."  ~Mickey Avalon, So Rich, So Pretty

OMG

I have to send a special thank ya out to D today for lending me her cute shoes AND adorable necklace!  I got lotsa compliments, so thanks for having much cuter accessories than me...  haha

Today has been a pretty good day so far, I've still got a lot to do tonight.  I'm very excited about my little date with C later!  We've started our weekly summer tradition of hitting up Diva's for a drink, a cupcake, and to catch up on everything.  I love it  :)  I've also got to go grocery shopping later... A is finally coming over to see the place and I'm making her dinner.  Well - that - and the fact that I've got no food.

I've gotten into a Seinfeld kick for the first time in awhile!  M and my dad have let me borrow a few seasons, so I've been watching that regularly for the past week.  It's just so good!  I kind of can't believe that I don't own the seasons myself...  Maybe that'll be my gift to myself here in the near future... hmmm.

"Girl you know I'm loving your, loving your style, check check check check check checking you out."  ~ Usher feat. Will.I.Am, OMG

Super Freak

Okay, I just have to bitch about something real quick...

WTF do you expect me say to you - let alone reply - after that note!?  What good did you think would come of that?  I honestly don't get it.  I'm not going to "shun" you, but at the same time you need to understand what I'm telling you.  There is probably more that I could tell you... but I know that if the situation were swapped, they are things that I myself would not want to hear.  I'm sorry that things didn't happen in your favor, but it's not my fault.  Yep, you're right, there is tension there.  And as much as I wish I could handle this passively and probably with much more maturity... I can't.

Thank you to A for helping see through this situation the most clearly.  You hit it right on the nose in reminding me that I can't be responsible for your reactions and feelings.  The terms are different and how you deal with them is not my problem.  Thanks, A, I feel so much better after talking this through with you.  :)

"She's a very kinky girl, the kind you don't take home to mother, she will never let your spirits down."  ~Rick James, Super Freak