Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Everyday Is A Winding Road
What a day. If I could think of anything to describe how things have changed for me most recently, I'd have to say "word vomit." Seriously, I can't shut up! I don't think I'm being annoying - but I might actually just be. Just tell me to shove it, I understand. I just feel like there's so much that I want to talk about! And that's such a good thing. For so so long, I had nothing to say. I didn't feel like it really mattered what I had to say, nor did I think it was important. Not that I think what I have to say now is that interesting or dire or critical, by any means... but just to feel like I'm able to talk has already felt really good. Not only can I not type fast enough today it seems, but I just can't wait to get home and talk to D!!
I don't want to do today. But I need to get it f*cking over with. Cause now it's just ridiculous and I feel like it's the one last thing that's holding me back. After today, I will finally feel completely resolved of all my past problems... not that they are even all fixed or back to normal. No. But they will have all been addressed so I can continue to move forward to becoming better.
I had a great meeting about becoming a member of SHRM - the Society for Human Resource Management - on campus! I'm really looking forward to getting more involved and reaching for my dream of working in HR. I feel like the journey officially started this morning, and I couldn't be more thrilled.
"I'm just wondering why I feel so all alone, why I'm a stranger in my own life." ~Sheryl Crow, Everyday Is A Winding Road
I don't want to do today. But I need to get it f*cking over with. Cause now it's just ridiculous and I feel like it's the one last thing that's holding me back. After today, I will finally feel completely resolved of all my past problems... not that they are even all fixed or back to normal. No. But they will have all been addressed so I can continue to move forward to becoming better.
I had a great meeting about becoming a member of SHRM - the Society for Human Resource Management - on campus! I'm really looking forward to getting more involved and reaching for my dream of working in HR. I feel like the journey officially started this morning, and I couldn't be more thrilled.
"I'm just wondering why I feel so all alone, why I'm a stranger in my own life." ~Sheryl Crow, Everyday Is A Winding Road
Monday, June 7, 2010
Climb
I have a lot to say! I've been seriously slacking in the posting-on-my-blog department lately, but I have honestly been a little too swamped with life for the past little bit. I am a bigger fan of shorter posts, so instead of doing one that's forever long, I'll post a few times today along different lines. Happy reading :)
"When the money's out, stand, climb, and fall, you carry the world, can't carry your hope." ~ Lifehouse, Climb
"When the money's out, stand, climb, and fall, you carry the world, can't carry your hope." ~ Lifehouse, Climb
Wash
Clarity.
As for me, this weekend has been the greatest blessing. Even going as far back as convos I had earlier last week, I couldn't have asked for anything better. Not only did I not see it coming, but I have to say that I am so thankful for not being afraid to speak up. And better yet, I am so thankful that I was able to listen. I have never known such clarity. Never felt so good about MY life.
Among getting some answers to things I have been in limbo about for so long, I learned a lot about myself. Learned a lot about life and how I need to treat mine like it is mine. I learned that shock is not the same as disappointment and never could I disappoint. I learned about the importance of being a sister. Being on the side of desperately wanting to be forgiven, I learned the importance of forgiveness. I learned to take it all in. To see the different sides. To explore the different sides. To talk. To forgive. To live. Bygones are bygones, and we can't chance the past. But we can change our future. I can change my future.
That being said, I have some thank yous. D, C, T, M, S, B - if you haven't heard the "thank you" come out of my mouth yet, it's coming. I have you guys to thank for such a clear future ahead of me. So thank you for being there, for lending an ear, for your forgiveness, for helping me be me. You have no idea how much I appreciate you. And God? He's all things great.
"All my life, never found my place, until I felt the sunlight on my face, my sunshine." ~Lifehouse, Wash
As for me, this weekend has been the greatest blessing. Even going as far back as convos I had earlier last week, I couldn't have asked for anything better. Not only did I not see it coming, but I have to say that I am so thankful for not being afraid to speak up. And better yet, I am so thankful that I was able to listen. I have never known such clarity. Never felt so good about MY life.
Among getting some answers to things I have been in limbo about for so long, I learned a lot about myself. Learned a lot about life and how I need to treat mine like it is mine. I learned that shock is not the same as disappointment and never could I disappoint. I learned about the importance of being a sister. Being on the side of desperately wanting to be forgiven, I learned the importance of forgiveness. I learned to take it all in. To see the different sides. To explore the different sides. To talk. To forgive. To live. Bygones are bygones, and we can't chance the past. But we can change our future. I can change my future.
That being said, I have some thank yous. D, C, T, M, S, B - if you haven't heard the "thank you" come out of my mouth yet, it's coming. I have you guys to thank for such a clear future ahead of me. So thank you for being there, for lending an ear, for your forgiveness, for helping me be me. You have no idea how much I appreciate you. And God? He's all things great.
"All my life, never found my place, until I felt the sunlight on my face, my sunshine." ~Lifehouse, Wash
Undone
G's Graduation.
Damn my mom's fam sure knows how to have a good time! It was great to be home with them this weekend. My 13 year old cousin J and 12 year old cousin C were having a blast playing "soda pong" which had to be one of the most entertaining things ever. Also, thank you B for taking such good care of me. Though I want to blame it on sleep deprivation, I promise I'm not that usually that klutzy after half a beer! haha But, I mean, that wasn't the first time that happened, so really, what can I say... Anyways, you know it was a great party when ALL of us woke up hungover the next day. It was fantastic. :) And Dad - you're so so dang silly when you drink a lot. We all loved it! And I love you!
"Tell me everything you need now, anything at all, and I will be the one waiting anytime you fall." ~Lifehouse, Undone
Damn my mom's fam sure knows how to have a good time! It was great to be home with them this weekend. My 13 year old cousin J and 12 year old cousin C were having a blast playing "soda pong" which had to be one of the most entertaining things ever. Also, thank you B for taking such good care of me. Though I want to blame it on sleep deprivation, I promise I'm not that usually that klutzy after half a beer! haha But, I mean, that wasn't the first time that happened, so really, what can I say... Anyways, you know it was a great party when ALL of us woke up hungover the next day. It was fantastic. :) And Dad - you're so so dang silly when you drink a lot. We all loved it! And I love you!
"Tell me everything you need now, anything at all, and I will be the one waiting anytime you fall." ~Lifehouse, Undone
In Your Skin
Inventory.
Went by much faster and much smoother than I could have imagined. It was my first official one and though there's a lot pessimistic views when it comes to inventory, my experience was nothing but good! Wish I could have gotten a little more sleep the night before, but I would have had to skip out on a very important birthday party and I wasn't about to even consider sleep over said person's party. :) I do have to say that - while the events of Friday night were collectively so very good thanks to great friends, incredibly hilarious ("...and then he stabbed him!") delicious (mmm sweet potato fries), and just a whole lot of fun all night long - we aren't quite sure what you were thinking. But it was a great time, it's a good group of friends we've got going on!
"Face the truth, it's hard to swallow, it's time to begin, there's only one life." ~Lifehouse, In Your Skin
Went by much faster and much smoother than I could have imagined. It was my first official one and though there's a lot pessimistic views when it comes to inventory, my experience was nothing but good! Wish I could have gotten a little more sleep the night before, but I would have had to skip out on a very important birthday party and I wasn't about to even consider sleep over said person's party. :) I do have to say that - while the events of Friday night were collectively so very good thanks to great friends, incredibly hilarious ("...and then he stabbed him!") delicious (mmm sweet potato fries), and just a whole lot of fun all night long - we aren't quite sure what you were thinking. But it was a great time, it's a good group of friends we've got going on!
"Face the truth, it's hard to swallow, it's time to begin, there's only one life." ~Lifehouse, In Your Skin
Thursday, June 3, 2010
That Don't Impress Me Much
Man, I have really been neglecting this blog over the past few! I need to step it up, get back in the game.
I wanted to share a really cool stop motion video C posted on her blog! You can find it here. Check it out, check her blog out. :)
The past few days have been REALLY good. Really, really good. Actually, the past week has been really good! This is how things are supposed to be. I'm glad we're back. I'd say this past week has set the stage for a great summer. I can't even wait!
"And all that extra hold gel in your hair oughta lock it, 'cause heaven forbid it should fall outta place." ~Shania Twain, That Don't Impress Me Much
I wanted to share a really cool stop motion video C posted on her blog! You can find it here. Check it out, check her blog out. :)
The past few days have been REALLY good. Really, really good. Actually, the past week has been really good! This is how things are supposed to be. I'm glad we're back. I'd say this past week has set the stage for a great summer. I can't even wait!
"And all that extra hold gel in your hair oughta lock it, 'cause heaven forbid it should fall outta place." ~Shania Twain, That Don't Impress Me Much
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Don't Know Why
June 1st!! Already?! Damn.
I totally didn't mean to go so long without posting, this past weekend was just so incredibly busy for me. But I loved every minute of it - even to the point of not wanting to come back because I was too busy staring at the gorgeous new hardwood floors and playing with Bun Bun. haha But now that I'm here it is nice to be back to my life, back at work, back at my and D's most lovely little abode that is looking so damn good! One little thing though... Memorial Day drivers are insane. That drive home was stressful as hell cause the drivers were all crazy. No bueno.
Well... I feel like I've got a lot to say, but nothing I particularly want to share.
"I wished that I could fly away, 'stead of kneeling in the sand, catching teardrops in my hand." ~Norah Jones, Don't Know Why
I totally didn't mean to go so long without posting, this past weekend was just so incredibly busy for me. But I loved every minute of it - even to the point of not wanting to come back because I was too busy staring at the gorgeous new hardwood floors and playing with Bun Bun. haha But now that I'm here it is nice to be back to my life, back at work, back at my and D's most lovely little abode that is looking so damn good! One little thing though... Memorial Day drivers are insane. That drive home was stressful as hell cause the drivers were all crazy. No bueno.
Well... I feel like I've got a lot to say, but nothing I particularly want to share.
"I wished that I could fly away, 'stead of kneeling in the sand, catching teardrops in my hand." ~Norah Jones, Don't Know Why
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