Owner of a Lonely Heart

SUCH A GOOD DAY! Busy day... VERY busy day that's only going to continue through Sunday... BUT SOOO GOOD! Been checking out a lot of apartments this week and still have another tonight and one next week BUT we checked out one that we are IN LOVE WITH!! Seriously seriously in love with!! I am so excited I can't hardly stand it. So far, everything is falling into place, so I really hope it all works out perfectly.

"Give your free will a chance, you've got to want to succeed." ~Yes, Owner of a Lonely Heart

Young Forever

Talked to my parents about my stupid legs and came to the horrible realization that this running thing is probably never going to work out for me. I'm not so much throwing in the towel as much as it's getting rudely yanked from my hands. I'm so frustrated! But what can I do... Damn. Short term, I'm laying off until the mararthon and then *literally* killing it. Nine more days.

"Reminisce, talk some shit, forever young is in your mind." ~Jay-Z (feat. Mr. Hudson), Young Forever

Mothers of the Disappeared

I've officially got some of the BEST friends EVER. A and A.... you two are so sly with your little surprises!! I loved it and I love you and thank you so much for being the friends that I don't deserve. :D

"In the wind we hear their laughter, in the rain we see their tears, we hear their heartbeat." ~U2, Mothers of the Disappeared

This Is Nowhere

I need to stop dillydallying. This semester is coming to an end rather quickly and my composure is fading fast! I've got to keep with it so my grades don't suffer... But who knows what'll happen in the next four weeks.

Skipped spin class this morning - - legs hurt like hell. Just walking to class I'm sure I looked a little MR with my slow-paced, faint limp. Ugh, this really sucks!! I definitely have to keep in shape for the half marathon, but I'm not sure what I should do about the running part of the training! 10 more days, 10 more days, 10 more days...

This week has been so off my usual routine that my days are all mixed up! It's crazy! And kind of driving me nuts... haha I just can't wait for this weekend to get back on track. Also, my bedroom is a complete and utter disaster. I wish Hurricane Amanda would cease and desist!

"I've got nothing to do but stare at these walls, and take some time to screw my head on right." ~The Airborne Toxic Event, This Is Nowhere

Breakeven

I just want this to be over already. I'm so so sick of the pain. I don't know what to do... I can't believe how much pain killer I stuffed my body with today, and still after two miles - TWO motherf*cking miles - my legs hurt so incredibly bad. UGH. I am so upset right now. So upset. Told myself to wait til I get home home to cry. 11 days and counting.

"I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing, just prayed to a god that I don't believe in." ~The Script, Breakeven

Stronger

Ooohhhmygaawd I am such a bitch. I really need to get a grip and CUT IT OUT. Actually, I'm so incredibly pissed at myself - for not being myself... if that makes any sense at all. I do not know where my mind has been, or why I keep thinking it's okay, or why the hell I think that my opinion is the sole, correct opinion. Like, seriously?! What the f*ck is that?! Who died and made me queen of the world? I dunno, but I definitely do not want that job. It's ME who is making this difficult, and it's ME who needs to change, and it's ME who needs a reality check. Cause if I f*ck this up, then my life will not only be hell on earth, but will just be a repeat of last year, and I DO NOT need that again. WAKE THE F*CK UP, AMANDA.

"There's a thousand of yous, there's only one of me, I'm trippin', I'm caught up in the moment, right?" ~Kanye West, Stronger

Devotion and Desire

A is so adorable! Got me a 6 pound bag of gummi bears from Costco for my bday. Okay, so gummi bears are my absolute favorite and that's totally awesome! Plus, I can use it as like a medicine ball to do some strength exercises! haha :) Love it.

"And I know the spark inside your eyes was just the match I used to set myself on fire." ~Bayside, Devotion and Desire

Nothin' On You

Sorry sorry sorry! I was totally MIA for the past few days... busy being social for once. haha Hung out with my girls on Friday night to celebrate E's birthday and then went home yesterday to celebrate Easter and my birthday with the fam. Both have been awesome! I bought my own beer today for the official first time ever! It was pretty damn sweet. And actually made me feel old... But I guess that's all I have to say for now. A and S are coming over a little later to have a drink with me, but then it's homework and to bed early. Yippee skippee :)

"They might say hi and I might hey, but you shouldn't worry about what they say, cause they got nothin' on you, baby." ~B.o.B (Feat. Bruno Mars), Nothin' On You

Break Your Heart

Went to bed at 3:30 last night, up at 7 to study and fiiiiiiiiinally I am done with all my exams this week!! YAY. History this morning went just fine. I'm not sure how I did, but I memorized the entire essay so I know I didn't leave anything out that I wanted, but I just hope it's what he's looking for. I'm just thankful it's over - but now I'm soooo very sleepy. Definitely not running today. I have already taken pain killer and my legs hurt so so very bad. :( But that's okay cause in the past four nights I've gotten a total of about 17 hours of sleep, so I could use the good nap.

Holy Thursday today. Going to the Mass of the Lord's Supper tonight. Can't believe Lent is already over! It went by so dang fast!

"Now I may not be the worse or best, but you've got to respect my honesty." ~Taio Cruz (feat. Ludacris), Break Your Heart

Island in the Sun

Alright, so I know that I didn't post the past couple of days and I apologize. I have been so incredibly busy with school and work that it's not even funny. In fact, I should be (and want to be!) in bed right now, but I put off studying for my exam tomorrow morning until this evening cause I was busy studying for my other two exams... I'm horrible. And so spring feverish. haha I just can't wait until this test is over and then I can destress and clean my bedroom and all that good stuff.

Got a few comments to make about some random stuff that I happened across today: 1) I don't understand the "take a picture of myself without my shirt with my cell phone in the mirror and post it on Facebook" thing... 2) To the gay guys sitting at the table next to me tonight, I think I can speak for the entire Roasting Co. when I say, thank you for - in your words - "breaking the hymen" and finally going out for coffee together. Hearing you two giggle loudly over my ipod for 2 hours was *such* a delight. 3) Why do people have a problem flushing a public toilet? I seriously thought that was a high school thing, but the more I realize it, it seems to just be a public restroom dealie-oh. Are we not adults?

And a few things that I wish I could say to a handful of people: 1) One of these days you're going to realize that I'm actually not just kidding. 2) I'm not your mother. 3) I wanna hold your haaaaaaaaaaand, I wanna hold your haaaand. 4) You are probably one of the nicest people that works here. 5) It's still sexual harrassment when you look at me like that but don't say anything, creep. Btw, you still owe me some gold coins. And yes, I am following my training plan, jackass. 6) Don't put me in the middle please. You already know I pick her over you. 7) Are you four years old? Seriously?! You're graduating from college and about to get married. Grow up.

Okay, back to studying so I hopefully don't have to pull an all-nighter tonight! Wish me luck. And if you could send me some motivation, that'd be great too, kthxbi :)

"We'll run away together, we'll spend some time forever, we'll never feel bad anymore." ~Weezer, Island in the Sun